ok on this page ill put some of my writings...or eventually some
of my pictures or w/e! depends if i ever get all the damn equipment u need to put pics online...well w/e....! well most of
u hve no idea that i even write but i will tell u now, this is just a few of pobley a thousand or so! well yeah..good
or not? please tell me...go to contacts page and u can figure out how to tell me! ok...well..read on!
ok..this is just some of my stuff..new and old..but no titles..oh well
I hurt i do not hate
Like a bug
I scream instead of cry
you bite me until im raw
i bleed instead of talk And
then you seduce me
on pain i could get high
with wings less of flaw
to much stress i have
you grow annoying
to many tears to shed
until i cant stand you
just let me bleed instead of share
but when you leave
for either way no one cares
in a way i mind of miss you
salted water a bitter taste left
let me die, im worthless waste are painful unforgettable
marks
drown me not in pity
and inside of me
for all i want is strength
i change from light to dark
for all i want is nuthin much
should i love you?
im only a disgrace
with beautiful unknown eyes?
words cannot heal me
or should i hate you?
and actions seem to miss
with my heart full of despise?
never once did i hate or
am i just a another victim?
my world my self my bliss
with food, skin and gruff?
maybe i am mistaken?
I shouldnt ask these questions of myself
ill just be used
sleepless nights
another trophy on a shelf
or dreamless sleeps
yet again mistaken?
no stars in the sky just passion, love and more?
just stillness that leaps
we'll be madly in love!
from the darkness in the halls tumble romantically on the floor!
and the moat around my bed
but once more wrong
from the tips of my toes
ignore me as you walk by
to the top of my head
but like a bug
afraid to move
youll start up again and fly
for then silence will break
you have no idea just how i felt
& be heard thruout the world when you claimed our love was pure
and someone might wake
secretly i thought
so quietly i sit
i could count on you for sure
as darkness finally fades
heartbroken you have left me
and dawn starts to approach as you have
left for war
thru the cracks of my shades my love
was strong for you
and youve left me w/no cure
but as you fight the lovesick battles
i mix my favorite potion you wear
my heart on your sleave
of poison,gas,and sweets and as you pass into
the future
a drink u well deserve i
stay in the past,my love, and grieve
it will knock you off your feet
its mixtures you dont know
but pardon your wells goodbye
scream
its taste youll learn to love
fever high and running fast
itll make you roam and fly
death approaching
no way to escape it
one glass is all it takes
quicker & quicker my heart is pacing
the poison will run thick in ur veins
time ticking
youll hestitate a second
hours to minutes to seconds
and the snow will turn to rain
no one to hear me
no one to save me
my spider wine will tease you
life draining
make u think ull live a long life
grasping every memory
it will utterly abuse you trying
to pull them back
it will stab you like a knife like a
drug, everything black & numb
then rapid sounds piercing the
the rain will turn keep on weeping
silent still air
but this you will not know
voices familiar w/dragging tones
youll be dead, a gory sight
i cry out to them
everything poisoned from
screaming with every
head to toe once
of strength left in my body
words heavy on my tongue
spider wine so elegant
hitting the roof of my mouth
with its bitter sweet taste and
bellowing into thick air
its velvet maroon color that
surrounds my aching
its "drink me" screaming face yet
numb body
torture, torture i tell you
it cries out to the night
for a promise to your self to be
"im sweet passion, bitter crime" broken
and forgotten
and you clueless, trusting person to lay homeless,
unknown
youll scream in agony, from just and
heavy upon the mind of
one taste of my bitter sweet
the now powerless human who
Spider Wine! just
wants enough pride
and power to SCREAM!
it seems to me that you are dead
this
i tell you with much concern
crush my dreams
for all i see is crimson red
i hate you so
my wound will bleed advice
from you i must now burn
the pain will show my
simple life has made a turn
it
seems to me that you are dead
dont talk to me
my tears will shed i
think of all the things you said
i needed you but
all your words now seem to burn
you left, i bled for
all i see is crimson red
dont look at me
for all the things that i was fed
you make me sick and
all the things you made me learn
you broke my heart
it seems to me that you are dead
so yours ill kick
with my heart now heavy like lead
your lies did hurt all
your gifts i must now return
but your words now burn
for all i see is crimson red
your life ill ruin
with no concern
with all the thoughts inside my head
i think i can finally discern
it seems to me that you are dead
for all i see is crimson red
